Seems been awhile i didn't post anything since my engagement day.
Kinda missed my blog. I missed writing on my blog.
Today, i just want to be remember today 4th October is my mom birthday.
Happy 49th Birthday, Ma!
We missed you very much :(
Almost 2 years without you by our sides.
And a year without Ayah.
Your daughters have been through so many difficult things without you both.
Some families support us, some didn't.
You guys must noticed it from up above, right? =)
Last year, i lost both of you.
This year, i lost a two men.
First, i met 4 years ago. Second, i just met last year.
(No this is not including Fajrul)
I though, i could be happy with these guys. Either one lahh.
Haha silly me.
Both said, they love me.
And they met my aunt & uncle, cousin..
And told them what their feeling about me.
But some issue comes up, so i choose to leave the second,
i let him go. I do really love him. We have many similarity.
The First one, i saw he just want to play with my heart.
He makes me fall to him.
But then, i just knew he got another women.
4 years, twice he make me like stupid doll.
a month ago, i choose to leave him too.
I didn't reply to his Whatsapp, Wechat & call.
Last 2 weeks ago, i just found a picture of him Married.
But he still try contact me like he used to.
He didn't tell me that he already married. Saja nak gedik mintak perhatian?
Haha you so dumb ass person!
Both are now a someone husband.
Both have debt with me.
The second choose to block me on social media & any kind of ways.
The First, said he want to pay last week. But still i didn't receive any money.
On November'16.
I asked God, i want to be with between these two.
But, God send me Fajrul.
We got in engage in Feb'17.
Maybe in my Du'a, i pray for someone who could took care of me.
Who could bring the goodness in me.
So, here i am with Fajrul.
Now i realize, what we asking for, not necessarily we can get.
God has set the best for me.
I must have faith on him.
Mungkin betul lah orang kata, dugaan bertunang tu berat.
Kita akan nampak lelaki lain lebih bagus dari tunang kita.
Sebab ini yang aku nampak.
Tapi aku masih belum mengalah bersama Fajrul.
Aku masih nampak tujuan utama kenapa Tuhan hantar dia pada aku.
To my dear fiancee,
if you read this.
Thank you for having a very high patience in me.
I though you would leave me.
But you didn't.
I am much worse than you ex-girlfriend.
But you choose to stay and help me to find a better life with you.
Thank You very much sayang.
Never realized that God has send me someone is much more worth to be with for the rest of my life.
I didn't know how to thank you.
But I just want you to know, this is my sincere apology and thank to you.
If i do wrong again, please never stop lead me.
I love you sayang.
In every possible way.
Thank you =)
Not so in the mood,
NuRhafyza